| Current music: | killing me softly |
definitely athiran
why does it have to end up like this, always.
do we not have another choice. why does it always have to be bitter. please tell me there is some other way. tell me i am not a bad person. tell me for once, give me that one last chance to prove that, i too can.
why is everything working against me. everything i do or say. nothing works for me. am i cursed?
i pray before this cellphone hoping you would call. will you?
before i turn all bitter and into a negative person. before i am lost beyond recovery, before i am ruined beyond repair. call me, will you.
wish you hadn't said some things you said, but you did, and my world went still for a moment and it disintegrated by itself. undo it all, tell me it was a joke, or just something you meant, but you are not sure you should have vocalized it. tell me something, pacify me. give me a false heaven. give me something to hold on to.
i too wish i was kinder, gentler, nicer, cooler, accommodating. i slapped myself some 10 times, only to find that i am numb from the living. thought a few good slaps could help.
am goin to go shoppin or something. retail therapy. cuz i'm goin crazy. let me see if i can distract my mind. hope i wont get lost. pray for me-seriously.
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